POW2: You are here now you disappeared. :(

"What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do" What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts

My Brothers and I, gone through many different phases of life in total different ways. Matthew was the best friend view to me even though he had Meningitis he was my Brother and My best Friend and that’s how I’ll always remembers him. Matthew Died on March 15, 2003 around 9 in the morning in our living room. These days I wear a necklace my Mom bought me in 7th grade that has his full name and the coordinates of the star we bought and named after him, I never take it off in less I have to. Instead of Sleeping in the Loft I now sleep in his room it just gives me that feeling that he isn't really gone and he still around. To this day when I'm going through a really rough time at school or at home I think of him and wonder what it would be like if he hadn't of left this world. 

These Days its just Nathan, My other brother and me. He is 15 we are both teenagers and we are just like any other siblings even though Nathan is autistic. He is my brother and right now I don't know what I would do if I lost him lets just say I well lets just say I wouldn't be a happy camper at all. He's strong, he thinks he's cute, and he thinks he's sneaky, and he loves food (like a normal teenage boy sadly), and a lot more. He is my brother to me he is normal even though I know he isn't but oh well.

 Everybody loves us three and to be honest I can’t blame them we are a pretty awesome bunch even though we lost one of our little gang members to be honest he still here and we all remember him, the fire department, the family, the kids he went to school with, everybody and people always recognize us (even when we don’t want them to).